waiting for 11.11

It's currently haf 10 and I am the only person awake in this house. I'm watching something on BBC1 and just chatting online to my friends.
I want to text my boyfriend but his phone died a while ago so he's out of touch for the time being...
But his drinking buddy is upsetting me. He is the "would be ex" because we were close to getting together but never did, and he won't believe I don't want him anymore.
I spent an hour last night* on his bed with him, just chatting. He kissed my head a couple of times but my boyfriend wouldn't have an issue with that as the guy was clearly upset.... He's blaming himself for things... but it's driving me mental!!!!
He is always so upset and it always brings me downand it's causing so much friction.
Six hours they've been drinking for now.
My boyfriend doesn't know that his friend is making me feel so scared and down right now.
May just forget 11.11 and go to sleep.

This time yesterday I was sat under the stars waiting to wish... why can't I be there tonight?

One xxx




*Both of OneAndOther have been on a residential with the "family" the past few days