Enrollment and GCSE Results day

What can I say? I was up at half past 8 this morning getting ready to go out for 9am to get One's results from school.

But beforeIi got there i was starting to thing to my self "will One's parents like me?" I was thinking about texting One and saying i'll meet her at the school later on to go to my college to enroll.

Well anyway, today i was nearly crying because i was that proud of One's results. I had to stop myself so that her parents and teachers did not think i was a cry baby.

Well anyway got a lift up to St-Helens off One's mum (she's a ledge, trust me). Got there and One and I went to look round the shops, It was fun after looking round shops we went to enroll me at college that took the mick!! Once i had enrolled we went to get some lunch then we went to enroll One. Once that was done we went to get the bus back to one of our voluntery groups and had a session there; I learned a few things today...

One being that I'm really lucky to have the mates that I have, they've helped me through difficult times.

Thanks Guys

"Other"

Well it aint results day but i've got mine

Today i got my BTEC results through the post this morning, was sorta not wanting to open them.

After finding out my results i told people most were happy some were not anyone its results day for GCSE's soon so good luck to all those getting results this thursday.

Anyway thats the good news of the day now i've got a bit of a question is it wrong to be really protective of someone you care for someone you consider to be family?

I think not but sometimes i think it is i dont know what to think at the min my head aint thinking straight.

Anyway's i was talking to people today about things and the topic came up on clothes and sizes i think that a size 8 for bottoms is small but each to there own taste.

Anyway thats all for now

The Other :)

Rain and Ice Cream

What can i say today has been one of the most instresting days of my life so far i never knew that ice-cream and rain went so well

by now you might be thinking what am i on about well i'll explain,

Went the old town to meet "One" and another mate went the shop got three tubs of Ice-Cream let me tell you this the ice cream was epicly tasty if that makes any sense.

Anyway i'm going on another holiday on the 2nd September to Portsmouth this should be fun

After getting ice cream though we walked from the old town to the city nice walk.

I'm going to have a day out on Thursday with "One" were going to enroll at two different colleges so i'm out from about 09:00.

Yeah while i remember i hope "One" GCSE results are good i'm sure they will be so good luck "One"

The Other

Can I ask a question?

Do I exist?

Serously. It sometimes feels as if nobody can see me here. It's like no one can see who I am or what I do.

I try and try but no one sees anything about me!!

Here's my story for the day.

I was at a volunteer meeting, I haven't been in about two months because of personal reasons but I decided to at least try... that's the worst mistake of the week.

There is a clear divide in the group. The cool, popular children and the rather mature youth that sit down and actually do something.

But it's not that which annoys me. It's the way I've given alot of my time to my volunteering and these people don't see me. The completely ignore me

You know what? Forget it.

I'm going to email some of the team leaders while I'm hypo and because the stress and depression will make me forget everything before the morning.

One

Please?

Dear Mr Universe,

Can I ask you a question?

Do you not wish for me to be angry?

Please understand that, although I pretend otherwise, I am human. I am only capable of human emotions and have no special powers with which I can conseal these.

Please let my friends know that, although I am angry I will NEVER physically take it out on them.. I'm too shy to take it out on a mother fucking wall so CHILL.

As for my Fiance, no, I will not take his balls off like he seems to think. I may want to cry and thump at his chest for a bit but I know it wouldn't actually hurt him.

But yes, I will hammer the keys on my laptop and call it a god-damn blog.

Also, tell the Gods to please be fair. You can't say I haven't suffered.

Stop letting people hurt me and stop letting them put me down.

Stop them from saying things that remind me of the horrific past I have now put behind me.

I think it hurts more because it was NEVER my fault. There was nothing I could do to stop any of this happening and if there ever was PLEASE tell me. It eats at me every day and I just wish I could tell someone how much it fucking well hurts.

I don't ask for revenge, I don't ask for you to smite the people that hurt me,

I just ask to be allowed to continue my life without living like this.

You know the last three years have been shit, each one getting worse.

You've saw how much I had to give up

Friends...

Hobbies...

Passions...

Dreams...

You know I'm living on life support.

You know this was the last thing I EVER wanted to do.

You know how I'm not coping

You know this is just getting worse.

I just need help.

Please?

Yours sincerely

One xxx

Aint been here for a while

So i've been on holiday in the last week went to Cornwall it was really nice a week camping with the family it was ace missed some of my mates even more "One"

Anyway as they say all good things have to come to a end this holiday did on the way home the car broke down :( we had to be towed from cornwall home which took like 8 hours, that long in two tow trucks is very boring and tiring could not sleep though because could not get comfy :(

Anyway now i been back since saturday so this is my first first in like a week seems longer but its not.

Anyway today someone has done my head in this person don't trust me due to somethin that happened a while ago which was not my fault

Does my head in when they do this......

Anyway i've put some pics on this blog from the Dr Who exebition in Lands End..
Other :)

Secrets

The best ones are the ones that you don't know.

Rather interesting theory really.

I'm gonna post random secrets in this blog for you.

That's what this blog is For me and The Other. We got in quite a bit of trouble for being oppinionated so we took our oppinions somewhere secret where you can find us but only the people we love will know it's us.

I like wearing mens clothes more than I do female clothes...

Especially underwear :-)

Tango 'till they're sore is one of my favourite songs ever and the line "I'll tell you all my secrets but I'll lie about my past" always confuses me as secrets are the past. Is it possible? I think my secret may fit the rule:

I have a 5 year history of severe sexual abuse...

And it still goes on

You know my secret but you don't know the past behind it... is that what the song is refairing to?

Secrets play a large part in my life. Is that a good thing?

All my favourite films are in spanish.

I tell you I understand them but I ALWAYS use subtitles

But my biggest secret is that I love my fiance more than anything in the world but I want the chance to be with someone else still.. I'm 16. I can't stress how much I love him and that yes, I will marry him no matter what happens but I want to try everything I can in life.

And if someone told me I could be famous I'd fuck you all off tomorrow

But you'd get to see me make all these little inside jokes that only we would understand. I'd come back one day, find the man I love and buy you all nice presents :-)

One xxx

Hey,

We we're having this discussion on the way home and I just wondered what you guys thought.

If you could go back in time and change things, what would you change?

One xxx

Welcome to life

Woke up this morning thinking that today would be one of the best days I've had for a long time!

Going out early, getting gym stuff, inding a present for someone, seeing the man I love, starting as a script writer, sorting out what had previously gone wrong and round it all off getting my ass kicked at bowling.

I had a hypo in the night (I'm diabetic) meaning I haven't really slept.

Told I was to babysit until goodness knows what time so I couldn't go out early

Passed out on my bed

Had to clean the house before I went out meaning my half nine start was now half eleven

Farrrr too tired to do the shopping so just hit the pub (didn't have alcohol) and this was the best part of the day

Went to catch the bus for my script writing and TWO drove past me.

returned to pub

The sorting out just made things worse. I.Am.Not.An.IDIOT. I've been here before, I know I can screw you over with a phone call but I'm a nice person so I won't do that

I came about 3rd in both games of bowling which was funny

Then my Boyfriend told me he was going to die in a few years... NEVER DO THAT. I fucking sobbed.

We nearly broke up tonight...

we sorted everything out on the way home. One, The Other and my Fiance.

We're all running away in a boat tomorrow...

In my dreams

One xxx

The best day of my life so far

So what can i say today has been one of the best days of my life except for a few things
dont want to go into detail its to confusing

Anyway went out with the "One" and a few mates to a local place to chill out and have something to eat that went reasonably well one of me mates got turned down for a drink because they thought his Id was fake when it was not.....

Anyway Party In the Park tomoz this should be fun.

Going on holiday tomorrow night so this may be my last post for a week.

Anyway thats all for now
The Other

So what can i say about today

To be honest today has been one of them normal days went out voluteering enjoyed the few hours i was there i texted people quite a bit then i got a text off one of my fav people text me saying they were off there holiday so i was well happy the next thing to do is meet up with this person and talk to them in person still aint done that want to though

Anyway thats all for now

The Other

tonight...

Well I wanted that extra place on this holiday with the Other. That would be fun.

I'm having a bit of an insane time at the moment. I'm not going the gym tonight and I just wanted to keep busy... but noooooooooooo. :-(

I'm rather down tonight guys, I'm sorry. There's alot going on like I said.

And I've left my ipod at my nan's which doesn't help at all.

I'm in alot of pain as well which isn't nice and my boyfriend is sooooooo upset, I'm really worried about him.

I've burnt all the roof of my mouth which was smart...

I fall asleep on the couch last night watching Van Helsing, maybe that's contributing to my mood.

I'm gonna go play my guitar for a bit now.

One xxx

I've been thinking the last few days

Last few days i've been thinking about things to do me and my mates and were i want to be soon (doubt it will happen) i want to be out of my house away from my family because they always argue over anything they can its horrible sometimes because i dont no what to do i can talk to some of my mates but not others over the things that happen in my house its horrible.

I got a bit of news before i found out that someone was not going on holiday with me and my original family but then i discovered that one of my sisters mates are going instead.

Its going to be a long week thats all im saying

Anyway thats all for now
The Other