Please?

Dear Mr Universe,

Can I ask you a question?

Do you not wish for me to be angry?

Please understand that, although I pretend otherwise, I am human. I am only capable of human emotions and have no special powers with which I can conseal these.

Please let my friends know that, although I am angry I will NEVER physically take it out on them.. I'm too shy to take it out on a mother fucking wall so CHILL.

As for my Fiance, no, I will not take his balls off like he seems to think. I may want to cry and thump at his chest for a bit but I know it wouldn't actually hurt him.

But yes, I will hammer the keys on my laptop and call it a god-damn blog.

Also, tell the Gods to please be fair. You can't say I haven't suffered.

Stop letting people hurt me and stop letting them put me down.

Stop them from saying things that remind me of the horrific past I have now put behind me.

I think it hurts more because it was NEVER my fault. There was nothing I could do to stop any of this happening and if there ever was PLEASE tell me. It eats at me every day and I just wish I could tell someone how much it fucking well hurts.

I don't ask for revenge, I don't ask for you to smite the people that hurt me,

I just ask to be allowed to continue my life without living like this.

You know the last three years have been shit, each one getting worse.

You've saw how much I had to give up

Friends...

Hobbies...

Passions...

Dreams...

You know I'm living on life support.

You know this was the last thing I EVER wanted to do.

You know how I'm not coping

You know this is just getting worse.

I just need help.

Please?

Yours sincerely

One xxx